After my meals out, self sabotage and working away I only put a pound on-and I was still bloated from the flight so maybe I’m not as bad a weight watcher as I thought. For example, in the airport waiting for my flight home I was faced with all sorts of dinner options from Burger King to pizzas and fish and chips. It didn’t enter my head to order any of these and had a spinach and potato fritter with a little bit of cheese (let’s forget about the cheeky small glass of red, I won’t tell anyone if you won’t 😉 ) I also exercised to counter balance any damage. I have quite a few sessions planned this week. My first being with my personal trainer in a couple of hours.
I’m working away from Sunday to Tuesday and as I will be away in Ireland I’m taking my Charlotte Crosby DVD with me to do in the hotel and I’ve planned what I will be eating when I get back. I made a lovely quick cheese sauce yesterday-10pp of light double cream, 6pp of half fat cheese with a splash of milk and split it into 4 portions which I’ve froze so I can just throw it on top of frozen veg that I can cook in the microwave.
That’s all good, however, I have for DAYS been thinking about what I will eat Sunday to Tuesday. Not so much what I will have at meals as I will make the best choices I can out of the options available to me. No I have been consumed with the FEAR OF BEING HUNGRY. This is a huge problem for me when I work away. What if I get hungry when I’m in my hotel room?? This is why I end up at a supermarket buying cheese and wine and opting not to eat in the hotel restaurant so I can literally ‘graze’ all night. My trip to Ireland will be different though as I won’t have my car with me to just nip to the supermarket and the training I’m delivering is in the hotel so I will land at the airport mid afternoon tomorrow and get a cab to the hotel then not leave there until I head back to the airport on Tuesday afternoon which has got me all panicked about being hungry. So now I’m thinking about what I can take with me in case I get hungry. I can’t take fresh food like fruit in my suitcase. I’m not sure I can get away with taking Babybels either so at the moment it’s going to be low pointed crisps and cereal/chocolate bars.
This preoccupation with what I can eat in 3 days time made me think about other times when the thought of food had overridden everything else and I do it every day. What if I get hungry at night and I don’t have any points left? When I’m on a day out what if I get hungry? This then causes me to stuff myself before I go. Something else I should mention is that I’m a pescatarian (which is the official term for a vegetarian who eats fish) so quite often food choices are limited depending on where we are going which then gives me the fear of being hungry. When I go on holiday I eat a huge breakfast before we go because I don’t know how long it will be until my next meal or we have a wedding or christening I do exactly the same. I also am VERY reluctant to share my food-what if I share it and then later I get hungry? Ok I’m full now but I best clear my plate because what if I get hungry later and I’m not near food? I’m not quite sure how I get over this fear but if anyone is at Manchester airport on Sunday afternoon and see a suitcase being hauled off for an inspection it’s probably because it’s got half my fridge in it…..