I have a BIG birthday at the end of next month. The big 40 !!!! I remember the surprise 40th we had for my dad when he was 40 I was 14 and I’ve no idea how the hell I got from 14 to 40. I don’t put myself in that bracket that I put my dad in when he was 40. On the plus side most people are surprised when I say I’m nearly 40 so that is always nice to hear 🙂
I think naturally it’s become a time of reflection and I won’t go into others areas of my life but in terms of my weight I never wanted to be ‘fat and 40’. I remember when I smoked I said I didn’t want to be 30 and a smoker and I wasn’t. I stopped when I was 28. Mission accomplished.
However it’s a very different story approaching my next decade (God that sounds old doesn’t it)?!) I’m not where I want to be and I know I’ve said this before that a size 14 isn’t ‘fat’ but it’s not where I wanted to be.
I have a Strictly Come Dancing theme for my party and when I planned this 6 months ago I planned on being a stone lighter than I am now and wearing a beautiful ball gown with feathers around the bottom with me looking like I belong on a glittery sparkly dance floor. It’s now time to face reality that I’m not going to look how I wanted. I have ordered a few dresses and one has already arrived and I nearly ripped my boobs off trying to get them in the dress and I’d ordered a size XXL (which was supposed to be a 16).I thanked my mum for nice legs last week she is also where the big bust comes from-great when you want to get served quick at the bar not so good in fitted dresses 🙂 I have 2 more dresses to arrive and the measurements on one put me at a size 20 according to their size guide! That’s made me feel great….
I still have 5 weeks to go so I’m aiming for half a stone off by then (10 as a stretch target) I have lost 2.5 in the last 2 weeks which is good as I’ve not stuck to the plan 100% and I’m not one of those people who drop 3,4,5 pound in a week. 2 is a big loss for me so I know my goal is achievable. I’m planning meals and exercise to get there. But there is a part of me saying ‘you’re not where you were supposed to be so why bother’ but I’ve got the Angel on the case to shut the Devil voice up!
Talking about planning. We all know that planning good healthy foods is the way to stay on track but it’s 5 weeks away and I’m already planning on what I’m going to eat and drink! I’m planning on drinking lots at my party and I’ve ordered a buffet with cheese, bread, crackers and vol au vons-I was so excited when my caterer said he would do this for me instead of sausage rolls (there will be food for meat eaters but hey it’s my party and I want lots of veggie stuff to choose from) and I do love a vol au von! I’ve also planned a cheese and wine night for the Saturday then on the Sunday-which is officially when I turn 40 (5.45pm to be precise and trust me I will be clinging on to my 30s until that point 🙂 I’m not even having a 40th party but a goodbye 30s one) I’m off to Chill Factore to play in the snow with my daughter and have breakfast, then a family meal, then drinks with my friends. It’s quite alarming that I’m already planning what to eat and drink in 5 weeks and none of it will be healthy!
Is that normal???
In the meantime I will veer between the angel and the devil and (hopefully) feel wonderful on the night