So I seem to still be in the groove. After over 12 months of battling around the same few pounds I achieved a 40lb loss milestone today! I have lost 8lbs in the last month which is a major achievement for me considering it took over 2 years to lose 2.5 stone. I lost 3.5lb this week and I could have cried with relief. I didn’t get the result I wanted on the scales last week and I could have been upset/hurt/disappointed/fed up-we’ve all been there at some point. But I knew that I was feeling better and my clothes were looser so somewhere along the line the work I did that week had to show in the scales.
I want out last weekend in a lovely lace peplum top that I’ve not been able to wear before because the lining didn’t go over my ‘muffin top’.
But I thought I’d try it and I felt great in it. Size 14 trousers that I had on were too big too!
We’ve been talking in our meeting about what we have gained from losing weight with Weight Watchers. I’ve heard some great comments that have truly given me goose pimples, such as wearing a bra with a smaller strap, being a brand new woman and being able to walk up the stairs without stopping. There’s so many things that are massive to people with a weight problem that people without just wouldn’t ‘get’.
My gains are:
Confidence-I don’t think people are looking at me thinking bloody hell she could do with losing a bit of weight but think that they might be looking because they like my hair, clothes, or how hard I’m working when I’m in the gym
Self belief-I truly believe that I can do this. That I can make good choices and still enjoy myself without feeling guilty.
Control-I can control what I’m putting in my body. The Devil and the Angel on my shoulders might battle it out but ultimately it is down to me what I do
Smaller Appetite-I wouldn’t say that I have always eaten huge portions but I’m finding that I am fuller quicker. I’ve recognised that gorging on all sorts on weigh in day as a ‘treat’ is a terrible habit that I can do without because you know what, I’m not actually hungry! I’m simply eating because it’s weigh in day. This is where currently I have seen the biggest gain in my attitude
Lastly, I have gained the ability to look in the mirror and embrace what I see instead of criticising it. So what if I have stretch marks, and cellulite? Who cares if I’ve got a jelly belly? I had a c section less than 3 years ago with big deep incisions and tears made in my stomach muscles. But you know what? I have a nice waist, a lovely curve to my figure and some bloody good legs! I was in the doctors a couple of weeks ago having a calf injury looked at and whilst he was examining my leg I thought ‘oh don’t my legs look good!’ I’ve also had a few comments on my legs recently from both my husband and friends 😊 plus I have gained the ability to cross my legs better without leg fat getting in the way
I go away in a weeks time and I WILL be wearing a bikini because it’s what I want to wear-hate tan lines! Will I hold my stomach in walking to the pool? Hell yeah! Will I compare myself to others? Probably. Will I let my appearance be the deciding factor on how good a holiday I have? Hell no!
40lb down, feeling good, feeling proud. I still have around another half stone to my personal goal and a stone and a half to my WW goal but I know that I’m on my WW journey for good and that the gains will only grow!
Currently I have lost the weight equivalent of a border collie-2 more to go for 3.5 stones!