I wore a skirt with a top tucked in!
Yes you read that correctly. Now for some that might not be a big deal but for a weight watcher who is paranoid and concerned with how they look I’m sure you will appreciate what a momentous occasion this was! (I was dressed as a superhero for work hence the rest of the outfit!)
I love wearing short skirts with a nice top but due to my size I haven’t done so for a few years. However in the past few weeks I have bought 3 new short skirts and I feel great in them!
I lost 2lb this week-I’m not sure I ‘deserved’ it as I had a big weekend but I did Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred plus Joe Wicks HIIT sessions a few times this week-although less than I had planned plus pulled it back food wise-fish casserole anyone? No thought not. Not one of my finest kitchen moments 😩
So 43lb down and my leader asked what my strengths were. Tracking is my big one. Even when I’ve gone over I still write it down-if I bite it I write it! It might not be 100% but for me it’s better than pretending it didn’t happen.
I had a bug that caused me to be sick all night before weigh in so although I’ll gladly accept the loss I think it’s a slightly false read so this week I need to watch that it doesn’t come back to bite me!
Thinking about strengths I think that’s why I like short skirts, I’ve spoken in the past about parts of my body that aren’t great but I accept can’t change-flat bum anyone? But the parts that I like-my waist and legs have always been smaller in comparison to the rest of my body. So short skirts are great-and where I’ve always been paranoid about my belly that is a hell of a lot smaller than it was.
I checked my inches yesterday and in the last 8 weeks I’ve also lost 4.5inches.
So I have 6lb to go until I reach my personal target and I want to do that by Christmas-because there are plenty more short skirts out there that would look great with a nice top tucked in them-and a want a sparkly one for Christmas 🙂
A couple of weeks ago in our meeting we discussed how clothes can affect your mood and make you feel fabulous-or frightful!
Not long after I read an interview with Charlotte Crosby (for those of you that don’t watch car crash reality TV shows like me she is from Geordie Shore where basically a group of them live in a house and spend their time getting ‘mortal’ (drunk) and fighting!) in her interview she said that even though she had been shown on TV having sex, fighting and wetting the bed (yes really) the thing that she was most ashamed of was that she had let herself get fat. She said that she stopped caring about herself and her appearance and for a while didn’t love herself-2 fitness DVDs later and 2.5 stone lighter she does now! It made me think how my appearance reflects my mood/headspace. And she’s got a really good point. When you stop caring about yourself I suppose it’s natural that your attention to your appearance will go too.
It’s the same when you are tired and your child has kept you up or night-memo to all you glam mummies out there at playgroups and nursery drop offs sometimes the woman next to you in leggings and a tshirt or with snot smeared all over her coat is doing everything she can to keep her eyes open let alone care about what she looks like!
This lack of caring about ourselves though for me leads to poor food choices then those food-or drink choices lead to feeling rubbish and if you’re not careful it becomes a vicious cycle.
In the meeting we discussed leggings. Ah leggings our favourite friend and enemy. They are a wonderful friend on a ‘fat’ day and are quick and easy to throw on with anything but as they stretch with us they very often hide the fact that we are getting bigger and that’s when they become our enemy. I always wear leggings to get weighed in. This is because when I first got weighed I wore them and as we all know we HAVE to ALWAYS get weighed in the same clothes because one week something might weigh half a pound heavier and it will show on the scale 😉. I began to think more about my appearance and face the fact that I think I can’t look good if I’m overweight. So I started to ‘wean’ myself off leggings and boots and make more of an effort when I go out-even if it is to nip to the supermarket. This week with the sun shining I put a light dress on to get weighed in.
Feeling fabulous on the outside starts with feeling fabulous on the inside so from here on in I’m going to be keeping up appearances and dress to impress-but if you on the odd occasion see me in leggings, with no make up on and snot on my coat tell me I look great anyway! Cheers to being fabulous!
I read a blog today from the family member who has breast cancer and she blogged about the changes her body was going to go through. Losing her breast, losing her hair and as they will take fat from her stomach to reconstruct her breast she will lose her first ever tattoo which is a fairy called Tallulah. She writes about feeling a little sad that the fairy is gong to be in a surgical bin somewhere and for some reason that really stuck with me-and I don’t know why because I don’t even have any tattoos!
It really made me think though about how we treat our bodies and in a previous blog I have written about my likes and dislikes of my own body. But you know what? Our body is pretty bloody amazing! Just thinking about the work going on inside to simply keep you breathing let alone carry out an activity is mind boggling. We only get one body so why do we treat it so badly and hate it at times?
We are constantly bombarded with images of ‘perfect’ celebrities and it does worry me not just what type of world my daughter will grow up in but the world that my 14 year old step daughter and 13 year old niece are in now. Body shaming is the norm. We see it all the time. Cheryl Cole/Fernandez Versini is too skinny. Endless pictures of reality TV ‘stars’ with headlines such as ‘has ballooned to a size 14’ ‘was once a curvy size 12 but has slimmed to a trim size 8’ ‘ballooned to a 14’?? ‘Curvy size 12’??? It no wonder that we start to dislike our bodies when the pressure is on to conform to the medias interpretation of ‘perfect’. A quick look at Instagram will show celebrity endorsements of anything from teeth whitening gel to slimming products.
We then have the other end of the spectrum where Gemma Collins celebrates her plus size-now I’m all for being happy in your body but bottom line is at a size 22/24 she can’t be in good health as she has that extra weight to carry around.
Is that me falling into the body shaming trap? It’s so easy to do!
And whilst we are body shaming what else are we doing? If you are anything like me I’m moaning about my ‘big belly’ whilst being ‘comforted’ by my usual weakness of cheese and wine! It’s just a vicious circle.
So I’m making a pledge to myself today to give my body the love and respect it deserves. To be positive about my body, to be motivated by the changes that healthy eating and exercise will bring and to stop throwing toxins down my throat like it’s going out of fashion.
I don’t aspire to look like any celebrity. I aspire to be the best version of myself I can be