Feeling Fat

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Despite my 4lb gain on Thursday I still spent the next few days eating and drinking without pointing.

I was out for a meal on Thursday night and had garlic bread and a tuna melt with chips but I drove so didn’t drink-until I got home that is!

Friday we had lunch out at a play area and had tuna mayo cheese buttie-on white bread! with chips. I also have a terrible habit of having a cup of tea and a kitkat when we go there-a 4 finger kitkat too not a 2 one.

Friday night was wine and cheese, Saturday started well but it was the one day I was allowing myself a mince pie with my Baileys thick double cream-I guesstimated it was about 20 smart points! A trip to my mums saw me eat about 5 chocolates from a box of heroes and for NYE we stayed in so it was cheese wine and crackers.

I woke feeling very ropey yesterday morning and my body couldn’t decide if I was hungry or just absolutely full to the brim.

I had some spread cheese on toast-light which I promptly threw back up. We went to my mother-in-laws for lunch and she gave me some tonic water to settle my stomach. this enables me to eat a large vegetable samosa before lunch. Lunch was pretty carb heavy. Everyone else had chicken but she had done me a large jacket potato served with a tomato and cheese pasta. She also had a dahl which was delicious. I ate the jacket, left most of the pasta (although I ate some as I didnt want to appear rude or ungrateful). She gave me 2 mini naans to go with the dhal-there was rice out but I don’t like it. I had one of the naan breads. This was followed by a large piece of viennetta then the tub of roses came out. I honestly lost count of how many I had. It was quite ridiculous.

We watched a film last night-Girl On A Train, nowhere near as good as the book just incase you were wondering-this involved yet more wine and cheese because I knew it was my last night of being a pig.

I dread to think how much more weight I have put on since Thursday. I always pile it on when I have chocolate. I can go over on cheese and wine and (sometimes) get away with it but chocolate always hits the scales. I’m feeling very fat and bloated and I’m back on track today. I have got a brand new Weight Watchers journal (I love the new journal and have enjoyed filling it in to get me focussed) and planned meals for the week. I don;t get weighed until Friday so here’s to some damage limitation

 

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The Christmas Confession

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Confessions Of A Weekend Away and Mindful Eating

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The Day I Didn’t Go To Class

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That’s my confession today. For the first time since I rejoined in April 2013, today was the first time I’ve missed it (with the exception of holiday).
So why did I miss it?
I’ve struggled this week. I had a night out on Saturday-cinema and Pizza Express. I had popcorn in the cinema but it was the skinny popcorn and I had a Leggara pizza and shared a portion of dough balls and garlic bread so I felt nicely in control but Sunday as I knew I had my uncles funeral on Monday so I was going to be off track (buffet food) I didn’t really ‘bother’. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t stuff my face but I wasn’t paying too much attention to what I was eating.
The funeral came and went and on Tuesday I was determined to stay on track and food wise I have been fine but after a few stresses with work I ‘relaxed’ with wine Tuesday and Thursday evening.
I felt horrible and I knew I had had a gain but I have in the past and this has never stopped me going to class.
I was feeling particularly emotional today and I don’t know if it was the not great choices I made in the week, the fact I felt like the marshmallow man from Ghostbusters, the fact I knew I had a gain (although it was only a pound as I weighed myself at home first which to be fair is not usually a good idea), or if it was to do with a couple of stresses at home.
Whatever it was as I was on my way to my class-yes I was actually on my way-I got really upset and the closer I got to class the more upset I got. Part of me was saying ‘you need to go’ the other part was saying ‘you can’t wander into the meeting in tears’ at the last minute I did a left turn and headed up the road away from my class.
I knew I needed the class though. It would have given me an emotional hug, I feel like it would have soothed me and I just need to sit in a meeting and listen, it’s like therapy.
I knew my leader was on holiday so that may have played a part in my decision but I really felt I couldn’t have held it together.
So I went home (my daughter was at my sisters as I drop her there before going to the meeting) and I took 10 minutes to myself. I then spent 3 hours with my daughter, sister and niece in Heaton Park enjoying the sunshine and the surroundings.
That gave me my emotional hug and I feel better now. I still feel the need to be soothed by a meeting but I will be back attending next Friday and I’ve already started to plan my week to get control back.
I’m looking forward to dealing with my emotions this week and not eating-well mainly drinking them, see the results on the scales next week and take my seat in the meeting

Confessions Of A Weekend Away

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We visited friends in Gloucester this weekend. We left early afternoon on Friday and I could have made sandwiches to take with us-actually I could have eaten before we went after all it’s only a few hours in the car. But no, road trip equals eating in the car doesn’t it? Which means when we stopped at the garage before we left I didn’t just fill the car with diesel but also bought sandwiches, drinks and chocolate!

In addition to my sandwich I also ‘picked’ at my daughters when she decided she had had enough.
When we were about 40 miles from our friends house we heard a loud bang, which can never be a good thing! Clearly something was wrong with the car but with some concentration and careful driving from my husband we got to our friends house. By the time I had spoken to our breakdown people and arranged for them to come on Sunday morning before we left to fix or recover the car it was nearly 7 o’clock and I was grateful for the nice cold glass of prosecco that was placed in my hand!
My friend had done a lovely big salad with cheese in and had also bought a mushroom and spinach quiche for me as I wasn’t eating whatever meat dish everyone else had. I had half the quiche. I’ve no idea how many points it was and to be honest before I went I decided that I wasn’t going to point but I would be mindful of what I was eating and not overdo it on portion sizes.
Later that night we had some cheese and crisps as nibbles plus more prosecco. I don’t know what it is about me and crisps but I really can’t digest them so I just shouldn’t have had any but I did and suffered with a poorly tummy the next morning.
Breakfast on Saturday was boiled egg however it was on 2 slices of normal size brown bread which isn’t a huge deal in the grand scheme of things.
We went to a play area with my daughter and there was a little zip wire there. In the past I wouldn’t have gone on it for fear of either breaking it or looking ‘too big’ however not only did I do it but I went on a second time just so I could get my husband to video it! 😊
BBQ was on the menu for later on and I’m pretty pleased at what I ate:
3 prawn and vegetable skewers
1 mini corn on the cob
1 medium sized jacket potato
There was also a salmon fillet I could have had but I was full so didn’t have it. So far the Angel is sitting pretty πŸ˜‡
However, we had been to a vineyard earlier in the day and I had bought some lovely goats cheese crackers and date and hazelnut ‘toasts’ (and as it was a vineyard obviously I bought wine too!). Later on out came the wine-and the crackers.
This resulted in horrendous stomach ache Sunday morning as I was bloated not just from the crackers but I think also from the bread.
A big Sunday breakfast was cooked and this is where being a vegetarian really has an advantage because I don’t need to eat a big plate of bacon and sausage or politely refuse it. And to save messing around with different frying pans so my fried eggs were cooked separately I asked for poached instead. So breakfast was:
2 poached eggs
2 pieces of toast
Couple of tablespoons beans
Mushrooms (cooked in butter I think)
It was still a bigger breakfast than I usually would have had but it wasn’t as bad as it could have been.
The breakdown man fixed the car we said our goodbyes and off we went. We got half a mile down the road before the problem happened again so we headed back to our friends to await recovery. This took several hours and a cheese barm was consumed whilst we were waiting.
I went to the shop to ‘stock up’ for the journey home-after all the truck was on a speed limitation of 50mph, add to that miles of roadworks and people either returning home from weekends away or commuting to work ready for Monday morning and who knew what time we would get home!
Food consumed in the truck not out of hunger but boredom plus because ‘it was there’
Half a packet of Walkers crisps
4 finger kitkat
1 twirl
3 babybels
So there I was sat in the back of the tow truck feeling bloated and horrible with my jeans having a bit of a dig into my tummy but already planning on eating when I got home-and it wasn’t WW friendly!
However, I was also planning my ‘pull it back’ meals so it’s not all bad πŸ˜‰

Weekend Failure

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The Buffet!

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I have been faced with 3-yes 3! buffets over the last 2 weekends and how I acted at them was very very different.
The first one was my sisters wedding-as we already know I piled high the cheese sandwiches! I ‘grazed’ on these throughout the night but panic mode started to set in when the staff started to clear the tables. FOBH (fear of being hungry for those who haven’t read my blogs before) hit and I didn’t want to eat the food then but I certainly didn’t want it taken away! I quickly scouted the room and my cousin and her fiancΓ© looked nicely settled so I gave them my plate with strict instructions not to let anyone take my plate away! I didn’t finish what was on the plate but knowing it was there stopped me from overeating before it was taken away. In terms of quantity of what was on the plate it was lots of sandwiches and it was easy to pile high as A-it was a wedding and it’s generally accepted that you go for a fair few hours without food at a wedding and B- (and I think this is a big one) it was quite dark so over piling the plate was fine as I couldn’t really been seen plus you got to the end of the line and walked back to your seat.
However, fast forward a week and I found myself standing in line for the buffet at a 21st. Now the big difference here was that the buffet was in a very highly lit room and not only that, in addition you had to walk back down the corridor into the main party room and pass everyone else in the queue. This immediately altered my choices. I had 2 triangles of cheese sandwich plus a little cheese from the cheese board-yes I know it’s still cheese but the QUANTITY was much lower. I didn’t want to be judged by the people I was walking passed on my way back to my table-‘she could do with cutting back on the food’ (this was despite being in an outfit I haven’t worn since October 2011 and being the lowest weight be been in 4 years).
The following day I was at a 1st birthday party and the food was set out in the dining room where nobody was sat so it was help yourself. This again was a game changer! The food I put on my plate was modest-however, as nobody could see me when I was in the room by myself it didn’t really matter if I popped another mini cheese and onion roll in my mouth! I really had to exercise self control in that room-If you have ever seen The Biggest Loser it was like being in The Room Of Temptation-God knows what would have happened if there had been a cheese board 😱😱
2 things influenced my choices. 1- the thought of being judged (yes I know that’s not good but that’s just who I am) and 2-would I get the opportunity to eat again if I needed to?
I didn’t eat a thing after the 21st as I was full-and this was despite the fact that my husband (who was home on child duty) had left me some cheese garlic bread when I got in. I actually threw it straight in the bin so I wouldn’t be tempted.
So there we have it the answer to dealing with a buffet-make sure you know there is going to be food later on (just in case) and serve your food in a room lit with fluorescent lighting where you have to do the food ‘walk of shame’!