40lb Down!

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Doing Brie-illantly…..

cheese, food, healthy eating, Little changes, mums losing weight, slimming, weight loss, weight struggles, Weight Watchers

The Day I Didn’t Go To Class

Attitude, Fat, mums losing weight, overeating, slimming, weight loss, weight struggles, Weight Watchers, Weight Watchers Meetings
That’s my confession today. For the first time since I rejoined in April 2013, today was the first time I’ve missed it (with the exception of holiday).
So why did I miss it?
I’ve struggled this week. I had a night out on Saturday-cinema and Pizza Express. I had popcorn in the cinema but it was the skinny popcorn and I had a Leggara pizza and shared a portion of dough balls and garlic bread so I felt nicely in control but Sunday as I knew I had my uncles funeral on Monday so I was going to be off track (buffet food) I didn’t really ‘bother’. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t stuff my face but I wasn’t paying too much attention to what I was eating.
The funeral came and went and on Tuesday I was determined to stay on track and food wise I have been fine but after a few stresses with work I ‘relaxed’ with wine Tuesday and Thursday evening.
I felt horrible and I knew I had had a gain but I have in the past and this has never stopped me going to class.
I was feeling particularly emotional today and I don’t know if it was the not great choices I made in the week, the fact I felt like the marshmallow man from Ghostbusters, the fact I knew I had a gain (although it was only a pound as I weighed myself at home first which to be fair is not usually a good idea), or if it was to do with a couple of stresses at home.
Whatever it was as I was on my way to my class-yes I was actually on my way-I got really upset and the closer I got to class the more upset I got. Part of me was saying ‘you need to go’ the other part was saying ‘you can’t wander into the meeting in tears’ at the last minute I did a left turn and headed up the road away from my class.
I knew I needed the class though. It would have given me an emotional hug, I feel like it would have soothed me and I just need to sit in a meeting and listen, it’s like therapy.
I knew my leader was on holiday so that may have played a part in my decision but I really felt I couldn’t have held it together.
So I went home (my daughter was at my sisters as I drop her there before going to the meeting) and I took 10 minutes to myself. I then spent 3 hours with my daughter, sister and niece in Heaton Park enjoying the sunshine and the surroundings.
That gave me my emotional hug and I feel better now. I still feel the need to be soothed by a meeting but I will be back attending next Friday and I’ve already started to plan my week to get control back.
I’m looking forward to dealing with my emotions this week and not eating-well mainly drinking them, see the results on the scales next week and take my seat in the meeting

Confessions Of A Weekend Away

Bread, Fat, food, healthy eating, mums losing weight, Non scale victory, overeating, slimming, SmartPoints, weight loss, weight struggles, Weight Watchers

We visited friends in Gloucester this weekend. We left early afternoon on Friday and I could have made sandwiches to take with us-actually I could have eaten before we went after all it’s only a few hours in the car. But no, road trip equals eating in the car doesn’t it? Which means when we stopped at the garage before we left I didn’t just fill the car with diesel but also bought sandwiches, drinks and chocolate!

In addition to my sandwich I also ‘picked’ at my daughters when she decided she had had enough.
When we were about 40 miles from our friends house we heard a loud bang, which can never be a good thing! Clearly something was wrong with the car but with some concentration and careful driving from my husband we got to our friends house. By the time I had spoken to our breakdown people and arranged for them to come on Sunday morning before we left to fix or recover the car it was nearly 7 o’clock and I was grateful for the nice cold glass of prosecco that was placed in my hand!
My friend had done a lovely big salad with cheese in and had also bought a mushroom and spinach quiche for me as I wasn’t eating whatever meat dish everyone else had. I had half the quiche. I’ve no idea how many points it was and to be honest before I went I decided that I wasn’t going to point but I would be mindful of what I was eating and not overdo it on portion sizes.
Later that night we had some cheese and crisps as nibbles plus more prosecco. I don’t know what it is about me and crisps but I really can’t digest them so I just shouldn’t have had any but I did and suffered with a poorly tummy the next morning.
Breakfast on Saturday was boiled egg however it was on 2 slices of normal size brown bread which isn’t a huge deal in the grand scheme of things.
We went to a play area with my daughter and there was a little zip wire there. In the past I wouldn’t have gone on it for fear of either breaking it or looking ‘too big’ however not only did I do it but I went on a second time just so I could get my husband to video it! ๐Ÿ˜Š
BBQ was on the menu for later on and I’m pretty pleased at what I ate:
3 prawn and vegetable skewers
1 mini corn on the cob
1 medium sized jacket potato
There was also a salmon fillet I could have had but I was full so didn’t have it. So far the Angel is sitting pretty ๐Ÿ˜‡
However, we had been to a vineyard earlier in the day and I had bought some lovely goats cheese crackers and date and hazelnut ‘toasts’ (and as it was a vineyard obviously I bought wine too!). Later on out came the wine-and the crackers.
This resulted in horrendous stomach ache Sunday morning as I was bloated not just from the crackers but I think also from the bread.
A big Sunday breakfast was cooked and this is where being a vegetarian really has an advantage because I don’t need to eat a big plate of bacon and sausage or politely refuse it. And to save messing around with different frying pans so my fried eggs were cooked separately I asked for poached instead. So breakfast was:
2 poached eggs
2 pieces of toast
Couple of tablespoons beans
Mushrooms (cooked in butter I think)
It was still a bigger breakfast than I usually would have had but it wasn’t as bad as it could have been.
The breakdown man fixed the car we said our goodbyes and off we went. We got half a mile down the road before the problem happened again so we headed back to our friends to await recovery. This took several hours and a cheese barm was consumed whilst we were waiting.
I went to the shop to ‘stock up’ for the journey home-after all the truck was on a speed limitation of 50mph, add to that miles of roadworks and people either returning home from weekends away or commuting to work ready for Monday morning and who knew what time we would get home!
Food consumed in the truck not out of hunger but boredom plus because ‘it was there’
Half a packet of Walkers crisps
4 finger kitkat
1 twirl
3 babybels
So there I was sat in the back of the tow truck feeling bloated and horrible with my jeans having a bit of a dig into my tummy but already planning on eating when I got home-and it wasn’t WW friendly!
However, I was also planning my ‘pull it back’ meals so it’s not all bad ๐Ÿ˜‰

All The Fun Of The Fair

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Last Sunday was Prestwich Carnival. We go to this every year-come rain or shine. It has dwindled over the years but I think it’s a great local community event and as a child was in the carnival numerous times.
After the parade had passed us, as usual we made our way to the park and fair where it finishes.
My sister and I went on the carousel with our munchkins. We wanted to sit in the horses but they wanted a carriage so we settled on that and planned our rides. Our favourite ride is the waltzers and we realised that it wasn’t there!
After putting the girls on a few rides we bought them some chips-I pinched a few too ๐Ÿ˜‰
We then went on to the Twister-again an old school favourite. My sister and her teenage daughter in one car with my other sister and I in one facing them. The thing about this ride is that the person on the right ends up getting pushed into the person sat on the left next to the car door as it gets faster. Due to this -and as my sister is smaller-I sat down on a sign that said ‘biggest person here’-nice!
The ride started slowly and I realised that it had been over a year since I had been on a fairground ride!
The music pumped out loud and as the lights blurred in front of me and the wind whipped across my face and hair I got a ย wonderful tickling in my stomach. I couldn’t stop laughing as I screeched ‘it’s getting faster!’ and my sister was laughing as she said ‘what did you expect?!’ We laughed all the way around the ride and when we got off looking like drunken pirates as we tried to get our balance I was hit with a sudden realisation that I hadn’t felt that light and carefree and laughed like that for AGES!
We got the girls an ice cream afterwards and I wasn’t going to have one until I discovered that I could have nuts on my ice cream with sauce and a flake which I’ve not had probably since I was a child, so I had one-although Scarlett dropped hers on the floor so I gave her the rest of the mine without even batting an eyelid (in fact I was secretly a little bit pleased as I didn’t have to eat it all)-now if you’ve read my I Don’t Share Food blog you will appreciate what a massive transformation this is!
When I got home I didn’t feel guilty about the few chips I had eaten-I could have eaten a full portion, or the ice cream-I could have bought Scarlett a new one and finished it off myself but I didn’t.
What has stuck in my mind was how free I felt on that ride and although I’ve had a tough emotional week (I’ve lost 2 family members in 10 days, both sudden unexplained deaths) and my food hasn’t been great, I have held onto that feeling and how it would feel even better to not be sat on the ‘biggest person’ seat.
I ended up losing 2lb this week and I honestly believe it was down to holding on to that positive feeling which has stopped me going completely off the rails. I even messaged my leader this week to say I needed a kick up the bum as I thought my choices weren’t great but it turns out it wasn’t as bad as I thought.
When I start to feel down I’m going to hold back onto the feeling of elation when I came off that ride and all the fun of the fair!ย 

Weekend Failure

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Me Time

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I have a couple of hours to spare this afternoon and I thought about sitting and having a chill and catch up on the various crap TV I have recorded but then I started to feel guilty about not doing ‘something’. I was sat here thinking jobs up that I could do!
I even opted for a quick shower instead of a long bath as I was trying to think of things to do. How crazy is that? Why can’t I just sit and do nothing?
My ‘me time’ is usually cheese and wine on aย Friday nightย which is doing my weight loss no good whatsoever! So it’s about time I looked for a different way to have a relax.
I started a Me To You cross stitch when I was pregnant for Scarlett’s room which I’ve not even finished so that’s on the list-see there I go already! I have started a list of things to do to relax me ๐Ÿ™ˆ
I do find it incredibly difficult to relax. Think I’m in need of a good spa day-I’ll put that on my list too ๐Ÿ˜Š
A while ago there was a thing on social media where for 100 days you had to post a picture of something that made you happy under the hashtag 100 happy days. I started this but found it was stressing me out because I was looking for things to show I was happy and I was more happy when I stopped doing it!
My focus has to be to stop stressing so much (I’m not one of those people who lose weight when they stress but pile it on!) and when I’m in need of a relax stop using food and drink (well more specifically wine) to do it and look at other ways to destress. Shopping, reading, bubble baths they can all go on the list-and I’ll try not to stress about not working through my ‘destress list’ ๐Ÿ˜‰