Fish, chips and peas in cafe
3 x jacket with tuna mayo and cheese in supermarket cafes
Chippy lunch of chips, mushy peas and a round of thick white bread with butter
2 blocks of Brie
1 block blue cheese
I block Jarslberg
1 peanut butter chunky
Tube of smarties
3 full fat cheese and tomato sandwiches
Approximately 6 bottles full fat wine and 6 low cal wine
In addition to my lovely pointed meals I have eaten the above in the last 2 weeks, this has resulted in 3lb gain over the 2 weeks and a very bloated belly-it actually hurts as it feels that big.
Despite my 4lb gain on Thursday I still spent the next few days eating and drinking without pointing.
I was out for a meal on Thursday night and had garlic bread and a tuna melt with chips but I drove so didn’t drink-until I got home that is!
Friday we had lunch out at a play area and had tuna mayo cheese buttie-on white bread! with chips. I also have a terrible habit of having a cup of tea and a kitkat when we go there-a 4 finger kitkat too not a 2 one.
Friday night was wine and cheese, Saturday started well but it was the one day I was allowing myself a mince pie with my Baileys thick double cream-I guesstimated it was about 20 smart points! A trip to my mums saw me eat about 5 chocolates from a box of heroes and for NYE we stayed in so it was cheese wine and crackers.
I woke feeling very ropey yesterday morning and my body couldn’t decide if I was hungry or just absolutely full to the brim.
I had some spread cheese on toast-light which I promptly threw back up. We went to my mother-in-laws for lunch and she gave me some tonic water to settle my stomach. this enables me to eat a large vegetable samosa before lunch. Lunch was pretty carb heavy. Everyone else had chicken but she had done me a large jacket potato served with a tomato and cheese pasta. She also had a dahl which was delicious. I ate the jacket, left most of the pasta (although I ate some as I didnt want to appear rude or ungrateful). She gave me 2 mini naans to go with the dhal-there was rice out but I don’t like it. I had one of the naan breads. This was followed by a large piece of viennetta then the tub of roses came out. I honestly lost count of how many I had. It was quite ridiculous.
We watched a film last night-Girl On A Train, nowhere near as good as the book just incase you were wondering-this involved yet more wine and cheese because I knew it was my last night of being a pig.
I dread to think how much more weight I have put on since Thursday. I always pile it on when I have chocolate. I can go over on cheese and wine and (sometimes) get away with it but chocolate always hits the scales. I’m feeling very fat and bloated and I’m back on track today. I have got a brand new Weight Watchers journal (I love the new journal and have enjoyed filling it in to get me focussed) and planned meals for the week. I don;t get weighed until Friday so here’s to some damage limitation
A couple of weeks ago in our meeting we discussed how clothes can affect your mood and make you feel fabulous-or frightful!
Not long after I read an interview with Charlotte Crosby (for those of you that don’t watch car crash reality TV shows like me she is from Geordie Shore where basically a group of them live in a house and spend their time getting ‘mortal’ (drunk) and fighting!) in her interview she said that even though she had been shown on TV having sex, fighting and wetting the bed (yes really) the thing that she was most ashamed of was that she had let herself get fat. She said that she stopped caring about herself and her appearance and for a while didn’t love herself-2 fitness DVDs later and 2.5 stone lighter she does now! It made me think how my appearance reflects my mood/headspace. And she’s got a really good point. When you stop caring about yourself I suppose it’s natural that your attention to your appearance will go too.
It’s the same when you are tired and your child has kept you up or night-memo to all you glam mummies out there at playgroups and nursery drop offs sometimes the woman next to you in leggings and a tshirt or with snot smeared all over her coat is doing everything she can to keep her eyes open let alone care about what she looks like!
This lack of caring about ourselves though for me leads to poor food choices then those food-or drink choices lead to feeling rubbish and if you’re not careful it becomes a vicious cycle.
In the meeting we discussed leggings. Ah leggings our favourite friend and enemy. They are a wonderful friend on a ‘fat’ day and are quick and easy to throw on with anything but as they stretch with us they very often hide the fact that we are getting bigger and that’s when they become our enemy. I always wear leggings to get weighed in. This is because when I first got weighed I wore them and as we all know we HAVE to ALWAYS get weighed in the same clothes because one week something might weigh half a pound heavier and it will show on the scale 😉. I began to think more about my appearance and face the fact that I think I can’t look good if I’m overweight. So I started to ‘wean’ myself off leggings and boots and make more of an effort when I go out-even if it is to nip to the supermarket. This week with the sun shining I put a light dress on to get weighed in.
Feeling fabulous on the outside starts with feeling fabulous on the inside so from here on in I’m going to be keeping up appearances and dress to impress-but if you on the odd occasion see me in leggings, with no make up on and snot on my coat tell me I look great anyway! Cheers to being fabulous!
This week I was ill on Halloween so didn’t end up eating party food or drinking at my sisters party as I was too busy throwing up! I didn’t eat until Sunday afternoon meaning I went 24 hours without eating-surely there’s a pound off 😉 once I did start eating on Sunday it was a cheese craving-for a change-and I had some of my sisters homemade cheese and onion pie. I counted this though and as it was the only thing I ate all day figured that it would be fine as I was still within my daily allowance. As you will have seen in my previous blog I ate mainly pumpkin in various different meals throughout the week and I continued my ’round the world’ foods with a trip to the Middle East with homemade falafel on mini wraps (this was 9pp) which is high for me to have in one meal.
I also took a trip to Japan with teriyaki salmon using naked noodles which I mixed with grated carrots, mange tout and sugar snap peas. Really tasty. I also looked at different breakfasts and took inspiration from Hawaii with tropical fruits for breakfast. For the record I am not a fan of fruit for breakfast but I thought I would give it a go and it’s not something I plan on repeating. I just don’t find it filling and I’ve missed having eggs for breakfast this week.
I also did 3 hours of working out-and I mean proper full on working out not just hanging around the gym having a 15 minute chat in between 10 minute workouts or a 30 minute chat on the treadmill-you know who you are 🙂
For bonfire night last night my sister made a veggie stew with dumplings and a pastry crust. I knew she was making this and allowed for it.
Then at weigh in this morning I had put on a pound 😦
Now I would like you tell you that I took this on the chin and saw things from a ‘bigger picture’ point of view and I could tell you that but I would be lying. Instead I sat in my meeting feeling fat and horrible and my sister was working this week which meant my munchkin came with me and spent the meeting running around which made me feel even more self conscious so I left the meeting and ended up eating a cheese sandwich made from A-white Warburtons toastie loaf and B-Cathedral City full fat mature cheddar 😦
Its so annoying because I had set myself a mini goal of losing 5lb before the end of November and now that’s 6 to go in 3 weeks and yes I appreciate that scoffing a big cheese sandwich hasn’t helped matters!
On Wednesday I felt like I must have lost about 3 pounds because I felt so good but I was really bloated last night and I’m hoping that the gain is down to that but it’s disappointing to have a gain when I’ve stuck to the plan.
I suppose though there a different ways of sticking to ‘the plan’. I was at home every day this week and even though I stayed within my allowance I grazed a lot. Maybe it works better for me to have 3 higher pointed meals per day instead of grazing but then we come back to my FOBH (for those new to my blog that’s fear of being hungry). I need to have plenty of points left in case I get hungry later in the day but then it could be that having low pointed meals is what is making me hungry in the first place!
So I think the focus needs to be some filling and healthy days this week and hoping I won’t be disappointed next Friday.